Depression

Hey Ladys and Gentlemen!   My Name is Thomas, I am 21 years old and I'm from Germany, and what shall I say, my english isn't the best. I have a big problem, my bad english is an other topic! Let's hope google knows how to translate. Since many years I have depression, in the middle of the last year, there was a point, all breaks. I was in a health-clinic, after that i wasn't able to go to work.   Now i try to fight vs. the depression, I don't know if I have a chance, but there is an other problem. Also when my health wasn't good, every month I god my salary. In Germany we have a good health system, but every time I must wait till 3 months, I get money. What happens in this 3 months... Of course, everbody wants money. And everthing what worked, crashed! Like nearly everbody I had a credit card, but if you don't get money, you havn't money, and you can't pay off your installments. So the credit card institute closed my account. The circle starts, and now I'm waiting for money, and I have debts, which are much higher than the next money from my health insurance can pay off. I can't refuel or call somebody, thats need money, so I can't drive to my doctor, not even phone him. My depression are very hard, but I can't focus healing, with such financial situation. I needet more than a month to write this little text... to get out of bed every morning was my mainproblem. I know, I am the only person, who is responsible for my financial problems, but without this avalanche, I weren't here. So, I would be very thankful for every Cent or Euro you can give to me to get out of this sh...Im sick, I don't know if I can win the fight vs. the fucking depression, but in the worst case, please help me, that I don't have to bequeath debts. At last... please forgive me this language, which should be english!