Depression fighter.

I'm a mother of a young boy.. he's only 6 years old.. im struggling in life. Here in the philippines we live on a daily basis and get paid so little that nothing lasts. I feel like im a failure as i cannot seem to give my son what he deserves in life.. as i go in with my struggles i think to my self and often times what i see seems so dark and eerie.. like theres tis dark cloud on the top of my head that is telling me that i will not succeed. I hate people who invented the specifics of money because if you dont have any you tend to lose everything. I admit i need help. Physically emotionally and financialy. But where? Where do i start? I think im mumbling words that i am not suppose to share but to whom? To whom can i talk to? 😔😳😳😔