I've always been a positive guy with loads of energy, took my first part-time job when I was 13 years old just because I liked the way It felt making money.
Late 2013 everything changed, I had no energy at all. I layed in bed all day and thought I was burnt out. My memory became worse and worse, and I was depressed, my brain was foggy and I couldn't keep my attention to keep up in the most simple of conversations with other people.
Because of this I didn't get any income so I used my saved money to pay bills for the next couple of months, well puhh, good I saved money, right? Well the money was all out after a while and I took loans, does type of loans you need to pay back the next month and had alot of payback interest. I took new loans to pay other loans. It all became a bad circle...
After I've been running to the doctors for a while I got the answer to why I had these symptoms, I had B12 deficiency. Thank god! Now I knew what It was and how to deal with It. I got medicine for It and some injections and started to feel good pretty quick.
So with the energy back I was determined to fix this mess I've put myself into while I was sick. But that was easier said than done. I started school when I became better and took a part-time job and I could see the end of the tunnel. But then my work couldn't offer any shifts. So right now everything I've been trying to fix is about to fall apart again. Thats why I'm trying a different method, meanwhile I'm looking for more jobs.
Right now the stress is eating me alive, I'm got my energy back but because of the situation I'm in I can't function properly due to the stress. My days now contains constant thoughts about "How will I get through this?" and "I'm worthless, what kind of situation have I put myself in?".
All I ever wishes for is to be out of this mess and live a normal life.
Even a dollar is appreciated, even 50cent is appreciated and I'm truly grateful for everything.
I'm 7000$ in debt but right now I'm just trying to get back on my feet so I can get through this. Got bills for 2500$ that needs to be payed now, money that I don't got.
Love to all of you!