My mom and I are constantly paranoid to the point that it feels unbearable to even breathe.
Due to the ongoing pandemic, my mom and I became dependent towards our extended family members, however, as good and easy as it may sound, this became a major burden for both of us. As a short background, my mom used to have a profitable job before, but due to my family's insistence, she left that job to take care of my grandfather. After his passing, my mother cannot afford to go back to her previous job anymore, thus, we had to rely on the allowance we can gather from my relative. Unfortunately, that is not the case we are subjected to at the moment. We are currently feeling suffocated and pressured from every aspect involving financial assistance. We are constantly being looked down upon because we are continuously relying on their money, consequently allowing one of my relatives to treat as harshly, both mentally and verbally, and in some cases, our health also began to deteriorate. One example is limiting the amount of time we can leave our own room. Another is that, our relative (which also lives with us) continuously pinpoints her mistakes at us, consequently making us fear every move or action we make. This actually created a huge effect in my life because I truly feel paranoid in the confinements of our own house (even my friends can vouch for the validity of this claim). Aside from my own problems, as a daughter, I cannot stand seeing my mother being belittled and downgraded after every sacrifice she offered for our family. Given the catastrophic effects of the pandemic in the country and considering my mom's age, she cannot land any decent job in our locality which further worsen our chances to earn our own money and flee from this suffocating place.
It might seem irrelevant to some, but I hope you can share some help for us, because I sincerely want my mother to be released from my family's grasps. It doesn't matter what happens to me, but for the sake of my mother's freedom again, I hope someone can help us with this matter.
Please help us escape from this paranoia.