Cry of help for Psychiatric Sessions

The only help I receive from people close to me whenever I tell that I am so ready to kill myself is either beating or cold shruggs.

I am a licensed professional secondary education Teacher. I swore an oath to help the world one soul at a time, but I feel like nobody wants me here anymore. My current workplace breaks me both mentally and emotionally with all these corporate bureaucratic bullshit, my supposed to be partner thinks depression is just a label I like to associate to myself, my friends - well they betray me on a daily basis, my dad remarried a girl younger than me - all of these just don't make me want to live longer yknow?

But I still think I can do this, if not, maybe your donations will help some funeral expenses?

I'm sorry. And thank you if you'll help me.