College and a New Home

Hello, everyone. I am in need of help.

I am living in an extremely toxic household and is currently diagnosed with a Persistent Depressive Disorder for 5 years and counting and I fear that I may be suffering from mental illnesses far more than that because of the environment I'm living in.

I'm currently living with my family and although I have loved them dearly, it is regrettable to admit that I am not doing so well in this house. I'm was molested by two of my family members which I was forced to reveal to my mother during an argument and confrontation.

She reassured me that those "family members" won't be getting help from her now but I found out that I've been lied and humiliated to when I overheard her saying she plans to get them a job at the company she works in.

I am in despair. I was once doing extremely well in school, with a promising future, but with the combination of stress, depression, and the overall suicidal thought which have been persisting since I was in 8th grade, I found myself struggling to wake up everyday and wishing that I could not wake up. Hence, I stop going to school, earning the ire of my mother again. My anxiety has worsened and every night my mom comes home, I would go into panic and could not calm down because of my past experiences.

Please. I am begging you. Whatever amount you decide to give will appreciated. There is nothing more than I would like to do than to get out of this house and continue my education elsewhere.

I am already 18 but my mother has expressed no desire in helping me whatsoever. I am alone.

Why not go to authorities? All of you has once been a child and you may be able to sympathize with me when I say that I do not want to make this bigger than it should lest I earn hate from everyone of my family whom I grew up with. But these same family is also hurting me and this is the only solution I can think. My mother doesn't care where I end up as long as I don't bother. As long as I have the money to rent an apartment somewhere and take care of my documents to enroll in a new school, I should be able to find a part-time job to support me and get help from my friends more.

The rest would go into my treatment and seeing a psychiatrist. Psychiatrist specialists are extremely expensive in this country and I long the day where I would be able to live a normal life. Contrary to popular belief, depression isn't a joke and shouldn't be romanticise with as with other mental illnesses.

It is hindering my everyday life and my life has gone into spiral because of it. If you know someone who is going through with a similar position like me, please help them any way you can.

Take note, that all my closest friends are teenagers themselves, at the ripe age of 18 so I have decided not to burden more than they can handle. But they know and they understand and they want to help.

All I'm asking is a little help. Please help me.