CHRONIC PAIN,CRPS AND MENTAL HEALTH

Struggling to make ends me every week, I had a surgery that was a groin hernia repair. This led to further complications having to get the mesh removed and a groin reconstruction. I suffered from a compressed femoral cutaneous nerve and internal bleeding. For 5 days. It was from this point the pain was excruciating leading to 2 steroid injections. Another operation oy abductor. Still with no success the depression hit me loosing the ability to spend time with my kids special the little one I was limited enough that I couldn't even kick a football with him. I had to have another operation and my sons said Daddy does this mean you will be able to play football with me again I told him I hope so. I went in and had a neuro stimulator implant to try and reduce the pain. Had it program and though you little ripper. Spending nights on the lounge wide awake to 4 or 5 am sometimes no sleep at all. The anxiety introduced it self I was going through panic attacks leading to the onset of anxiety. Then weeks went by and I started to realise that one foot was colder then the other.

After 3 days of the same experience I ended up going to my GP his response was oh know you have an onset of CRPS (complex regional pain syndrome) The depression was getting bad sitting and realising that my future is fading away that dream of being a CEO of a company was getting smaller bu the day. The daily duress of my whole life gone. I couldn't study any more so I had to provide a certificate that stated my diagnosis and I pulled the pin and stopped studying my MBA with a major in change.

.My left foot turned red it was burning like it was on fire stinging in could water and hot water It gave no relief, I went back into hospital for a week long of Ketamine infusion hoping I could catch a break. My inflammation markers went up blood count went up the fears of a super bug being on the stimulator had seen the stimulator get removed and back in for another week long Ketamine infusion. By this time I was struggling bad the thoughts were all negative suicidal tendacies were becoming stronger and I was admitted to Saint John of God a psyc hospital . 3 weeks to attend programs and medication changes. The though of being picked up by my feet and hung up side down the world has fallen around me and the darkness that surrounded me . The opportunities the quality of life all gone. I did come home from Saint John of God on different medications. I was once again going back to the psych hospital this time to under go transcrainal magnetic stimulation. I had 24 sessions 2 sessions a day at 38 minutes a session equaling to approximately 3000 zaps per session my mood changed the negative thoughts ain't there no more. The hardest part is acceptance about who I am and what I am limited to dob the option to any type of job has gone 2 different doctor have told I can never return to work because of the degenerative disease (CRPS) the depression and anxiety. I have exhausted all my revenues the cost of living is hard I am only a renter so buying that house has gone as well. The financial worries and unnecessary stress just makes things worse as stress can have a impact against CRPs as it opens the brain gates. I can not stand longer then 30 minutes sitting no more then an hour I need to elevate my leg to help reduce the redness and the sweating. Having a car that I am still paying of but I am almost there I have 7000 left on it I have a whole bunch of smaller loans that would take me to 12750. I do not have the mental capacity to learn as I can not even handle pressure. I beak down some times because OT becomes too overwhelming.

What am I going to do for the next 30 years of my life . I have put together this funding pages to help with bills, medication and hopefully to clear the small debts. These days with the price of house ifbyour lucking to even have a deposit. It would be most definitely cheaper to buy. I am really blessed that I have had a supporting life. One thing I did realise through this is that she is my foundation .

Please if you can spare 10 cents or a dollar it will help me get through this battle once andnif I ever do I will go into volunteer work to support thebones that are in need and need the support . There is a few people out there but I believe experiencing what I have and am go through ibwould be able to offer this to a level of understanding.

My boys I have 3 won't be the best Christmas but I will give them a little something.

Thank you for taking your time to read this.