Chronic Major Depression Needs Time to Heal both Mind and Soul

A 47 year single amerasian person with no siblings, not recognized by american father, orphaned by mother and chronically depressed since 2004, has had more bad days than good despite medications. on my good days i dream of many things such as finding birth my father, finally answering the questions that have haunted me since my childhood. i have been advised to take a longer vacation to a place where I may be able to heal my soul and mind, but with all my financial resources drained due to chronic absenteeism due to my depression and the need to prioritize my financial obligations and debts, i could not afford to set up the required resources to allow me to heal my mind and spirit. i know this move is a long shot but desperate times call for desperate measures. Thank you.