Chronic Kidney Disease Stage 5 (I don’t want to lose my mother)

I am Novelyn Pagasian. I'm 27 years old from Lusot Baliangao Misamis Occidental. I am currently living in Pasay City Metro Manila and I am working here for the sake of my family. I don't want to lose my mother at her very young age 47 years old. Her name is Alberta Pagasian, she is suffering from Chronic Kidney Disease Stage 5 and she is now in her Hemodialysis treatment since March 15, 2020 the exact date of the Total Lockdown here in the Philippines. I am desperately asking for help because I can no longer sustain the needs of my mother (Php 8,000 per week). It takes 3 to 4 hours from our house to the hospital, it is very remote area and that is three times a week. Our world stopped. My salary stopped. I was so brawled out by the situation since the Pandemic is not yet over. I have no idea where to go. Her antibiotics are very expensive. Sometimes I couldn't sleep thinking about my big problem. I sometimes commit suicide because I am not taking anymore my medicine. I have maintenance too for my Anxiety and Depression but I stopped taking medication to have my mom's need met first. I know I need to be strong. I just pray to God that he will give more strength to my mother as well as to myself and my family because if ever I will get sick, nobody will take good care of her and my family since I am the bread winner of our family. I even ask God to just forget about me just heal my mother. Don't ask about the government I am so sad, I already did EVERYTHING because I don't want to lose my mother. I will do everything for my mother, my family. It's fine with me if I have nothing the important is I want my mother and my love ones live longer. As a loving daughter, I believe that this is the only chance I could help her and pay off all the things she has done for me in my entire life. Hemodialysis is the only way to sustain her life and MIRACLE. To God be the Glory.