My children haven’t had a decent Christmas for years. I haven’t been the father to my 5 children and 2 grand children that I should have been to them. I am ashamed of my neglect and selfishness. I abandoned them by coming to prison and leaving them to fend for themselves. I have been incarcerated since 2013, leaving their mothers to be fathers and providers, which hasn’t been going well at all, because I left each of them in debt. I have hurt my family in ways I can’t imagine and for once I want to do something nice for them. It will not make up for anything, but it is a start. I am behind in my child support and I have missed many of the best times of their lives. My youngest daughter and my grand babies I have yet to even hold or meet! My oldest boy’s mother has been battling breast- and brain cancer with no support once so ever, my youngest son’s mother is going through it, homeless, sleeping on het mother’s couch whenever her mother allows her to, which isn’t often. My youngest daughter and eldest daughter’s mother has just been through a nasty divorce with me and lost many of the things of which I should have financially taken care of, like her home, car and insurance. Now she is starting all over, barely hanging on by a string. My kids are suffering tremendously because of all this. My second oldest girl has a 4 year old child, just lost her job, living of her college grant money. All of this, because of me! Please help me to at least show some effort in trying to right a few of my wrongs. If I can do something special, just this once, I will forever be grateful to every one of you.