I guess the first step is to ask for help if you need it…
My name is Hristo and I’m transsexual. I’venever asked for it that it’s just the way things are, I was born this way. On this point I need all the help that is possible in any way possible- physical and mental, any information about good doctor and good procedures.
Transitioning is hard for me due to my life situation and the circumstances surrounding me. Honestly, it seems to me almost impossible.
Living in a small town I’ve been bullied and discriminated all my life,having to take insults on a daily basis. I’m a child of divorced parents, I witnessed domestic violence.My father died, he was a drunk and had a stroke. My mother never understood and supported me. I came out to her years ago but we never speak of it. “Don’t ask, don’t tell”. When I was a teenager, I went to a child protection institution because I was bullied at school. I was a victim of an attempted rape.
I don’t have family support, I don’t have friends, I don’t have people to protect me and make me feel safe.
I have only two people who love me unconditionally. My grandparents!Unfortunately, I lost one of them, my grandma passed away... Now I have to take care of my grandpa since he has health issues.He had a heart attack, has diabetes and glaucoma, which took one of his eyes.I can't leave him, it's not right.
So I need your help for my transition – so I can love my life, feel like a normal person, feel that I’m beautiful when I see myself in the mirror, feel the freedom, to have my life, to have confidence, to have loved one, a chance to simply be ME. Chance for a second life.
I guess most of you can imagine what it is like to have such issues. I hope you will help me!
And so I kindly ask all people with warm hearts, all parents of different children, all of the LGBT community, all organizations
to please help me!
Sometimes I think:
Occasionally I forgetthat I’m different when I watch the sky and the white fluffy clouds. I God why he choose this for me? Why me?!I'm not mad. Why should I go through all this when life can be so easy? I know He gave me all this for a reason, I don’t know why just yet. I guess it will teach me something.
Sometimes I surrender, sometimes I fight. It’s weird not to feel your body as your own, to feel it as a cage. I’m doing my best to be normal, when it’s not so easy to act normal for people who don’t know and have no idea about you and all the pain you feel when they judge you for no reason, because I'm innocent and never wanted it. I refuse to be part of bad statistics for suicide rates or prostitution; I want to live, even though many people tell me I have to die.
Close your eyes, can you imagine even for a second your life being like this after reading these lines?
So here I’m fighting and asking for help!
All the money will be used only for my transition.
All the money left over will be donated to other causes.