Depression,asthma and heart tachycardia-need heart machine

Hello all, my name is Dominik and i am 26 years old boy who is trying to live his life.

At this time doctor diagnostic me tachycardia,which mean my heart work faster than should,so i will need some examination and propably surgery to implement heart machine to cooperation my heart rythm.

I already has asthma,and every day i need my inhaller to be possible to make me breath (after Covid-19 my asthma worsen),i am using Ventholyn inhaller.

This all doctors will paid by me,so i dont know where i will take a money,now at covid time without the work...😞

And now about me and my life.

My story begin when i was around 14, when my mother and dad divorce.

My dad always just drink alcohol and didnt go to work,so divorce was not good, that was hard times for me and my younger sister.

My mom end in hospital, trying to hurt herself, after that, she cant handle it and we lost our home, because mom cant pay our bills alone :(

So after that we live with my sister with my grandma about 1 year and my mom go to Germany to make some money to live. At this year doctor diagnostic cancer to my grandma, she had all therapy what she can received, i was totally worry about her, but now she is ok, thanks god.

I was at high shool and in Slovakia, where i was born, people didnt like LGBTQ+ community so of course i was hard bullying physical and psychical and of course we dont have enought money for clothes, so i waear not so good clothes so all people at school was kidding me and laughting on me.

I was afraid everyday going to school, why are people so bad?

From this time i have depressions, i am taking antidepressants, but my health mostly mentaly still doesnt doing well so dont know how continue...

My mom found boyfriend in Germany, who was from Slovakia too but he was from Bratislava, so after we go to live at Bratislava and i must change school or trying remote studying, so i choose remote studying.

And you know what? I end high school with the almost the best result, i am proud of myself.

After school, of course, if i want live a little normall life by myself so i must take a loan to pay bills and rent for flat, so i moved to Prague, where i live till now.

I am trying make a business as freelance, but Covid-19 hit already my finance too and my partner too (as worker in food industry as restaurant).

I need to pay bills, and my dream is pay my loan,doctors and try start new healthy life so if there is anyone who can help me i will be thankful.

Thanks,

Dominik