Everyday of my life seems a heavy burden. I feel very lonely, isolated, hopeless, and helpless. How it feels like being being bullied? It's more than just a torture of emotions. It feels like your drown to death by a heavy current of water in the sea, catching your breath, but your'e already choked by your own tears in pain. Being ugly is not my fault. But sometimes, I feel like life rejected me. I couldn't see love or kindness in the eyes of many people that surrounds me. It makes me sad, anxious, and depressed. All they do is inflicting pain, hurt, and talk negative behind my back. I always pretend to be okay and smiling. But when I am alone, unhappiness always forces it's way and kills me with misery. I was born this way and once again, never my fault. I never prayed to be beautiful. But I asked God to help me being accepted and appreciated even a little.
I just thought if I have a brace, (even not a superior one) will boost my confidence and I'll have a bit of joy with life. It's kind of impossible for me to get this myself for now as I have plenty of responsibilities at home. I still help my other siblings for their schoolings.
Thank you for your understanding, kindness, and help. May God also answer the desires of your heart!