Psychotherapy for major depression/suicide thoughts

My name is Klara and I am 30 years old. I've been battling depression for over 5 years. I've been on and off antidepressants but at this moment they don't work at all. I'd like to go to psychotherapy which has helped me in the past but I don't have the funds for it. I am getting deeper and deeper into depression and I can't seem to see a way out anymore. My suicide thoughts are getting louder and louder. I have just recently quit my professional sports career which has also been a very big change in my life. I don't want to feel like this, please help me.