Trans woman in abusive household, help me get out

Pre-operation Trans Under Abusive Family

Hi. My name is Kenneth John Yu. I go by the name "Naomi".
I've been living a life of total psychological pain and neglect under such parents.

I only use words to drive them away because I can't bear the thought of actually hurting them in other ways, but every day my patience and care for them grows thin. If I can say that I care for my family then I would. But they make it hard for me to say that, or give it any justification.

A lot of people have suggested I report my case to the CPS (Child Protection Services). I can put it on the table, but there's two reasons holding me back:
1. I'm pretty sure they will appeal such case and try to disprove me. They've already even shifted blame on me for "being so weak". They're not afraid at all, which sucks.
2. I can't even stand it. I try to think of whose lives are gonna be affected the most. My siblings. Sure, they don't treat me well enough either, but they don't deserve this conviction.

So I've planned to set everything and leave somewhere else. This fundraiser is one of the first plans.

I don't know if I stay in this country or not, but I need to set everything first.

I'm sure I will have no regrets once I disown myself from my family. Time will tell that I've at least tried to free myself from constant emotional turmoil.