Ive been posting more about my cats and I was contacted by some nice cat ladies who do a lot of my country's charity work. I've also been seeing a lot of posts for abbandone kittens needing care. I was free and I had taken care of many newborn babies along with my mom so I offered to help.

The cat ladies provided me with the kitten milk, feeding bottles, money and after 1 month they woul pick the kittens for their further care, neutering and adopting.

Two days in one of the kittens stopped eating, got cold and lethargic, we ran to the vet where they gave him IV fluids and tried to warm him. He was going to stay in but a few hours later they called, the kitten passed away.

The rest was tested for parasytes and given medication. But 3 more days later another kitten stopped eating and her tummy grew up a lot in a matter of hours. We suspect her intestines paralized and she soon passed away too.

All my previous newborn kittens had survived and many still live with me, so this has really affected me and I've been paranoid of more kittens dying on me. Having to see the life slowly go away from a baby kitten while you try hard to keep them alive is one of the saddest things Ive had to live. It has happenes before but in different ways such accidents and theyre still my saddest memories. This time I also feel guilty and regretful that I put myself in this situation, I just wanted to help these kittens that would otherwise be left to die.

I feel bad for my mom that also suffered and had to pay a bill of $95 that in the end didnt work. The other cat ladies said they can cover some of that bill, but they're already paying for the food and supplies and I feel so bad every time Ive had to text them I lost another kitten. They assure me this happens a lot and I shouldnt feel so bad but I cant help it.

We are taking these kittens for their appointment on december 26th along with Ricci for her exams and biopsy. Im just hoping they all make it.