Aug 04, 2017 at 10:30 pm

Gratitude from Jessie

Update posted by Caren von Gontard

I truly am speechless. Many different emotions take over me and at the moment it is hard to express myself as well as I would like. Thank you ALL, so so so so much! My heart is filled with love, joy, support, but I cannot deny the fact that this is extremely hard for me to take in. The last thing I want to do is bother people or worry them. I've always had a hard time receiving and not because I think I can do it all on my own, but simply because I do not know how to ask, and maybe the most prominent thought is that I do not feel as if I deserve it. My initial reaction, of course, was that there are many people or animals who need help more than I do. Caren and my mom guided me through my emotions and I finally was able to calm down. Even though I did tell Caren I would quit working for her with Viva la Vida. =)

Ezra and my mom knew better than to get involved as they knew I would have this reaction, but it is also hard for both of them to accept help or receive help. We are all growing so much through this car accident. I cannot say that it has been an easy journey, but thankfully I forget everything so I am not fully aware of how hard it is. I have been processing a lot, learning a lot, growing a lot, laughing a lot and also crying. My mom and Ezra have been outstanding and I have no idea what I would do without them. I apologize I haven't been able to see people but my brain Injury is tricky and I still need to take things slow.

Caren, thank you for starting this and for not fearing my reaction. Thank you for helping me through it all.

From the bottom of my heart and soul, THANK YOU ALL. Words will never be good enough to describe my gratitude towards all of you. I wish I could bottle it all up and send each one of you a little bottle of love and gratitude to carry with you. But for now, all I have is my words. I am crying as I am writing this, and I have yet to see the website as I am pretty sure I will have another meltdown. I am waiting to look at it with Ezra, so that he and my mom can team up and calm me down once again.

Thank you all again. Truly. All your love and sweetness and support are truly appreciated, and trust me, I am forever grateful for each and every one of you. I hope one day I will be able to do for you this and more, and I promise you I will be paying it forward.

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