After a recent Dr. appointment, on a day when there was snow up in the mountains, I decided to take myself up to the ski hill. I had lived near this mountain for about 9 years, and gone up almost every day after work to either cross-country ski, snowshoe, or hike. It was always a place where I renewed myself and let go of the day.

This time was no different. Tall Ponderosa pines were flocked with snow, branches draping down close to the ground. There was a crystal quality to the air. Clouds floated across the upper ski runs, and snow crystals touched my cheeks as I walked. I felt both stronger than I have in ages, and also realized how lightweight I still am. My 5'10" frame is holding about 120 lbs., and I felt the wind pushing me along when it blew.

At one point, I wanted to get in under a beautiful pine tree for a few minutes. I stepped off the groomed snowshoe trail...without snowshoes...and went down thigh-high in the snow. Laugh out loud, I have forgotten some of my outdoor smarts.

I met two friends on the trail from all those years ago. As I returned to my car and began to drive down the mountain, I realized how much fun I used to have, and that somehow i had let that go, had forgotten some of what I loved and thrived on, and decided to find ways to restore that part of my life.

I am housesitting for a friend right now, walking her old but full-of-pep Huskie several times a day, up on a mesa with 360 degree mountain views. Today it is snowing. I love this life, and am remembering more of how to play and enjoy what makes me feel good and strong.

I am thinking of joining a gym for awhile, to regain my strength, and to build my bones and muscle back. I need to gain more weight...such a problem, eh?...and that seems to be a good approach. I used to enjoy working out, and hope that is still true.

Meanwhile, I am spending time in the studio. For years, my creative work was product oriented, creating finished works of art that I could then sell. For now, I am delving into a time of experimentation and learning. I don't know where it will go...true of so many parts of my life at the moment...but...I am absolutely loving it, and thriving on it. Trusting a deeper source of inspiration, and giving my creative expression room to blossom.

I hope you are also finding/remembering ways to refresh, nurture, and thrive. I find it essential so that I can be and bring my best to the world around me.

If you would like to help me financially as I build myself back up - I have some big dental repair expenses going on, and my health care for recovering from chemo/radiation is not covered by insurance. Your gifts make a magnificent difference to me. You can connect with me directly at 917 Bee Court, Socorro NM 87801, or use a credit card/PayPal here on this site.

Thank you, and take beautiful care of yourself and this precious life.

Stede