Since we both are here, can I ask you few things?
- If you can't financially help: Do a quickly prayer for me.
- Join me in a 4 min-read Devotional I posted here. [See below].
- Spread the Message around the world. Share it. [I prepared the last image for us.]
- Most important: Listen with me to the Johnny Cash Official Link -- I see a Darkness [Click] I shared here. One of my favs about my life.
I worried about two things I can't effort to treat: symptoms medics associate of o variety of diseases, from brain tumor to autoimmune disease.
I'm usually not welcomed among our Christian denominations due political reasons. What reasons? I do not support their political agenda against basic Human Natural Rights which includes extrajudicial killing and overpopulating prison for lucre.
It Is hard to talk with our Christians. They are refusing to accept my help, to aid or even answer me when I ask if they are ok.
Here is a brief summary of the problems I have been through:
- Rejected by employers.
- Suspecting of brain tumor.
- Evidences of neurological problems.
- Symptoms of autoimmune rheumatism.
- Inability to perform basic tasks to maintain survival.
- Negligence from society.
- Tired of facing denominational bias due I don't support oppressive pseudo-Christian politics [extrajudicial killings, prison overpopulation etc.].
[I got sick, I got fired from an abusive job, and I lost the ability to keep my survival by myself. After years of trying to move on, I have come to ask for help to diagnose the disease. Exams can help me to check for hypotheses given, such as autoimmune deficiency and get more job openings, or perform the brain scan ordered by the previous doctor. I show signs of psychotic behavior, reasoning problems, and I have difficulty locomotion and coordination for basic tasks. Besides constant pains throughout the body. I run the risk of not having a home. I spoke with people with similar symptoms about treatment costs. I have no other options to appeal this long way.]
Have you ever felt that, without realizing why, your life went into a fight without reason? And you just got lost wanting stop it for at least a single moment?
I'm not sure how it all started. But I wish I could finish well - to do a relatively good fight before it ends.
I became ill and more and more irritated as time passed. I was feeling incapable - I didn't discovered the diagnosis of the disease. Learning to write better in my mother tongue, making friends full of problems.
Suddenly, I couldn't help them. I became powerless. I let anger, humiliation from people and lack of faith make me broken-down. I watched my friends suffers without knowing what to do. I laid on with people with problems and I don't know if I can fix things.
Years ago, I worked hard. 8am to 10pm, often Monday to Monday. Quickly, several symptoms appeared. I felt like I was about to faint every day. Dizziness, constant gastroesophageal reflux. Insomnia and increased paranoid tendencies. Intense weakness, pains in all joints.
Lack of coordination to walk. Fear of not getting home after service. Vomiting on the floor of the work area. Too much breaks. Going with my co-workers to the emergency room without ever getting real help.
Doctors asked for exams. They suspected of brain tumor. The pressure of the work routine made me leave the exams for later. Until I got fired and I no longer had access to medical appointments anymore.
The public health system has shown no interest in helping. I couldn't even hire labor lawyers. Friends became worried and didn't understood what was happening. Relatives and employers laugh at the situation. The disease became worse and the threats of expulsion from home became more frequent.
Bonus: Listen to one of my favs from Johnny Cash Official Channel. [Direct Link in a New Tab if it fails here.] That's what I played obsessively to remind about my past friends, now and my future.
Typing each letter here, I wonder if writing it makes sense.
It is difficult to reason right. I no longer think straight. My medication is not enough to help me write and study. Who knows, with help, I can continue the plans for the Kingdom of God.
I wish I could help people one day. Next time, go to these sites as a donor - or raising funds for other people. I did not just want to be the Angry Guy against anything and everything. Seeing friends and communities succumb to fear, suicide attempts, seeing my country being dragged by anger, controversy, and false political promises that will only lead to more war.
Well. I feel like I can not do much now. This will be my birthday request for you:
Maybe you feel like Job. Prejudged by society, a worthless pariah. The worst thing to lose with so many attacks is not just health, but faith. We start doubting who we are.
If we value something and why a God would care about human dramas. The natural reaction is to become bitter. Feeling bruised and hurting other people. Mistakes are piling up. Guilt generating more guilt. Hope is suffocated by the thorns of life.
That is why I must hear the word of Christ. Believe in the Gospel of Faith. His yoke is easy and his burden is light. We must edify each other to understand the love of Christ, show it for the people and give love to the world around us.
As song about teenager gangs said: "There is always a chance to rectify what you've taken, make your peace in the world."
If you can make a difference for someone, even if it's small, do it. Did you leave something behind? Try to solve it while it's time --try to soften unnecessary disputes. Do your part and move on.
“Is not this the kind of fasting I have chosen: to loose the chains of injustice and untie the cords of the yoke, to set the oppressed free and break every yoke?” (Isaiah 58:6)
Let's put our offerings and rituals aside until we act to reconcile with our neighbors. This is the greatest representation of the sacrifice of Christ for us. We also seek, by the power of Gospel, to make certain sacrifices to reconcile with one another. Showing the message of God's Love, just as Jesus sacrificed himself to reconcile us with him.
"Ye know that they which are accounted to rule over the Gentiles exercise lordship over them; and their great ones exercise authority upon them. But so shall it not be among you: but whosoever will be great among you, shall be your minister: And whosoever of you will be the chiefest, shall be servant of all. For even the Son of man came not to be ministered unto, but to minister, and to give his life a ransom for many.” (Mark 10:42-45)
Finishing it, you may pray with me, brother. As I promised, here is the easy built for easy-sharing a Christian message today.
Have a wonderful blessed day.
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