I am campaigning for the private mental health care I am in desperate need of. Since my best friend took her own life a year ago, my mental health has deteriorated to breaking point with complicated grief, suicidal ideation and at least two attempts, major depressive disorder, intense anxiety, increased self-harm and psychosis along with symptoms of PTSD and personality disorder.
Mental health resources are incredibly limited. The mental health team agree that admittance to a psychiatric ward is not suitable for my needs and yet there is next to no chance of me being granted funding for treatment out of area- The Priory, for example, where I could receive inpatient or outpatient treatment specific to trauma. I have ended up in A&E repeatedly with suicidal intent and self-harm; I don't know what else I need to do in order for them to consider me a 'special case' in desperate need of funding for the conditions I am struggling with.
It is incredibly difficult for me to believe that I am worthy of any kind of funding/donations. I may not be worth it, but maybe life is. At breaking point, I have nothing to lose.
I hope my own campaign helps to at least spread more awareness on the behalf of so many others who are desperate for help but whose cries and pleas remain unheard.