begging for freedom

 hi my name is karen and it seems like bad luck follows me where ever i go. i have been battling depression for over 30 years. basically i funtioned with the depression most of my life with the help from therapy and medicines then i lost my husband in a car accident. i was widowed at 33 with a 2 year old baby. while mourning and not thinking clearly, i spent our life savings to buy the restaurant i had worked at for18 years. the owner whom i trusted took the money and ran he didnt sign the restaurant over to me, i lost everything.4 years later i remarried, this caused me to lose a railroad pension from my late husband. i thought i married for love but now know my 2nd husband married me to become legal in this country. after much sadness and reoccuring depression i attemted several suisides. i turned to alcohol and became an alcoholic. i went to rehab and have been clean for 7 months i am now on dissability, because i have lupus which my sister recently passed away from, and i have fybromyalgia and chronic pain disorder. i can not pay my bills on what little bit of money i get from dissability. i do not want to lose my home because i have no place my son and i can go. if anyone locally helps me i can give back by cooking for them that was my profession for 30 years.