Becoming an Artist or Programmer

it's a silly story and to be honest. it's embarrassing that I have to resort to gofundme. I know that there are a lot of people who really need help and it's a bit shameful for me to be doing this. but that's completely up to you. I really don't want to force anyone.

here's my story.

please forgive me for not telling any personal details about myself. I'm scared. and I don't know what else to do. I'm not in trouble or anything. but I only wish to ask help to push me forward to what I wanted to be. I'm already 18. and I wish to become an artist or a programmer. I wanted to make my own business, At least a small business but I couldn't start it without any support. you see. my mother insisted me to become a doctor. but I didn't want to. it's not where I heart belongs. when I told her I wanted to become an artist she told me I will never be successful. I told her I can show you that I can be. but I needed the support and most importantly the equipment. but she refused because she still believes with them I wouldn't be good enough. and to be honest, that hurts. I want to show them that I can do it. and honestly, If this all work out. i'll be able to be who i want to be and even support myself for collage. Like I said. I'm not forcing any of you who reads this to donate. If you find this ridiculous and stupid, I completely understand. But please. if you do decide to help me with my goal. I can no thank you enough for helping a complete stranger.

Again, Thank you. God Bless you