I am trying to raise money for a beautiful white smile. I hate what I see every time I look in the mirror. I have Fluorosis. which is a defect in the enamel caused by excess indigestion of fluoride (because I used to live in an area fluoridated water and drank water from the tap as a child). My teeth is beyond discoloration because of this. I have avoided getting it cosmetically taken care of because I am so embarrassed. I don't even want the dentist looking at my teeth for fear of what he might think.
This affects me everyday. I am so embarrassed by it. I've been teased as a child, and stared at as an adult. I avoid meeting new people. I avoid talking, smiling, and laughing as much as I can because I don't want people looking at my teeth and thinking "ewww, what nasty teeth she has!". I try not to go out when I don't have to because I don't want people looking at my teeth. I've even missed my H.S reunion.
I work around children and we all know how curious and truthful children can be. When it was dental hygiene week, I just wanted to hide. I knew this would bring extra attention to my teeth and it did. One student said to me "Your teeth is yellow" another said "Why is your teeth like that?" and a lot asked "Can I see your teeth?" so that they can get a better view (since I try to hide my teeth when I talk). I felt like I belonged in a carnival show the way the students were all trying to get a closer look and commenting. I was mortified!
I am just so embarrassed, stressed and paranoid because every time I open my mouth, I know people are looking and commenting in their heads. I wish I was one of those people who
takes their teeth for granted.
Do you know what it feels like to hate your smile? to avoid contact with people for fear of being stared at? to not be able to smile or laugh when you want to?
I can't take it anymore! I finally decided to face my fears (and the dentist) and do something about it, but I can't without your help, so won't you please help me? Please?