To whoever reading this right now, I just want to say my thank you to you for stopping by my gogetfunding page, I deeply appreciate everyone stopping by my page, it really means a lot to me.
Let me introduce myself to you guys. My name is Bayani Mangunay III, a twenty-year-old transgender woman living here in the Philippines. I’m currently on my fourth year now in college taking up Bachelor of Arts in International Studies (Phew, struggled for four years but I pushed through this one hella course haha). So obviously I am not a robot and if you’re skeptical about me, you can follow me on twitter @bayanimangunay and add me and facebook Bayani Mangunay (haha lowkey shameless plug).
So this part is where all my transgender journey started.
Ever since I was a kid I considered myself as a girl, from playing dolls to even secretly using my mother's heels when she’s away. My mom even said to me that I act more feminine than my younger sister. My childhood years were great, perfect even from what I remember, but then there comes a time that I started to question myself, why am I so different from my sister? Why I don't have the same body parts as hers? And this makes me really sad. This got worse when I started hitting my puberty stage, when I got taller, had broader shoulders, and a deeper voice, this made me so depressed to the point that I don't want to look at myself in the mirror, ‘cause all I kept seeing is a girl trapped in a man’s body. Throughout my teenage years up to my first year in college, I felt really gender dysphoric. Then in my second year, I came to terms that I’m transgender. Ever since then, it has been a roller coaster ride for me. I started transitioning when I was 18 but de-transitioned when most of my classmates see the changes in my body. Being the coward that I am, I constantly told them that it was just loose skin from losing weight ( I lost weight BTW) but in reality, my boobs are growing. De-transitioning is the biggest mistake I ever made and also the regret for my 18-year-old self. Now that I'm 20, I started to think that if I gonna get stuck in these four walls that I built, I will never be truly happy with my life. Then this came to a decision to start transitioning again.
This is me when I was a baby
This is me when I was a kid ( you can tell I love barbies)
This is me now, looking more androgynous than looking feminine.
So it’s been a month now since I started to re-transition (if that’s a word??), I started again last January. At first, I was ecstatic when I re-transitioned, it felt like I was going to be my real self. But this dysphoria kept taking a toll on me and I felt really empty. Every time I look at myself in the mirror, I felt ugly, scared that people will clock me, scared of people judging me. Every time I look at myself, I see a man and not a woman.
In order for me to be more comfortable with my own body, I came to a decision to get a surgery, Facial Feminization Surgery. Most people will say that why would I want to change some parts of myself or why am I not satisfied with myself. But it is for my well being. most people don't know how hard it is for me to walk down the streets or just walking on the hallways of our school getting clocked by people that I’m still a guy. People don’t know how hard it is to be transgender in a very conservative country like ours (Philippines tolerates LGBT community but does not fully accepts us). I just wanted to be my most real self and in order for me to achieve that is to undergo this type of surgery.
I inquired several surgeons who specialize in Facial Feminization Surgery and I came across Beauty Med Thailand who specializes in arranging surgeries and trips closely to Thailand’s best hospitals. I chose Dr. Preecha for my FFS and here are his prices:
- Brow bossing shave = USD 5,000
- Lowering & Reshape hairline = USD 4,500
- Nose reshape ( augmentation = USD 1000 / alarplasty = USD 750 )
- Jaw angle resection / mandibular shaving = USD 6,500 - 8,500
- Chin shaving = USD 5000 / implant = USD 1,500
When I saw the prices of the surgery, I was shocked that the prices were so high. I have my savings here but it’s not enough to cover all the surgeries including all the expenses needed when I’m in Thailand. And since I have my personal savings I will not include the lowering and reshape of the hairline and also the alarplasty ‘cause my savings is just enough for the two. So I need your support and help guys in my journey to be my real self.
I hope you guys can help me achieve this dream.