Battle against depression and suicidal tendencies.

My fiance left me with our two year old son because I am a bipolar. I do not have the funds for medication not even for check up. Now, they left me. It has been two month already since they left me.

I am so depressed and all I think of is wanting to die. I wake up every 10-30 minutes of sleep crying and cannot stop the thoughts in my head which are all death. It feels like my stomach is rolling up on it's own. I do not wish to hurt anyone. I am getting scared of the things that are running in my mind.

I want to fix myself. I loaned enough money to have myself checked by a psychiatrist. Finding out that they need me confined. I am from the Philippines. Hospital told me that confinement is like 8,000 Philippine peso which is $157.00 daily and needed a downpayment of 20,000 Philippine peso is about $395.00

I do not know where to get that kind of money. I work as a customer representative for T-mobile and is on a leave of absence since it is adding to the stress I do not go to work for a month meaning I do not have salary.

I want to get my family back, whatever it takes. I'm on my last meds of anti depression which is Jovia Tablet and Rivotril.

If anyone can help I will forever take it as a debt of gratitude and if I am cured and gets a chance to help others. I will definitely pass it on.

Thank you so much in advance