Battle against Depression

Hi, I'm a 22 year old male, a regular in the Singapore Armed Forces. Contract bounded for 8 years, sole breadwinner for my family.

I have been serving in the force for 3 years since 2014, however I started to work with this particular superior a year ago. Ever since i started working with him, he constantly talks me down in front of others and badmouthing me to others that ask about me, resulting in a bad impression even though i constantly prove him wrong. However things got worse recently. He started to insult me in front of others by calling me a dog, badmouthing me even more to others, undermines my capability to work, constantly tells me what I do is wrong even tho it is right. I took it all in stride till a night where i broke down due to stress, instead of doing what a superior should do, he started laughing behind my back as if I deserved it. I was admitted to IMH that night and I got diagnosed with depression. It was 4 months ago, till now I am battling with suicidal thoughts every single day.

I come from a single-parent family. Ever since I signed on, my mum stopped working due to her tennis elbow and gout attacks. I have been providing for her and my sister since then. However, I have been on unpaid medical leave as Singapore Law only gives us 14 days of paid medical leave. Thus, for her medical bills and household bills and expenses on food for the past 4 months left me with a hefty debt with Cashline and Easicredit, amounting to more than $8000.

I want to go back to work, i love my job, however I lost faith in the SAF as after what my superior did to me, i was told they will not take any actions towards him as there wasn't enough evidence, despite me having all the text messages and people standing up to my statements. I was advised not to take legal actions against him as I'm only going against MINDEF which will be a losing end for me. I am currently still on unpaid medical leave, I want to go back to work but my psychiatrist advised me not to due to my suicidal tendencies.

I really need help with my debt, and my mum's medical bills. Please.