I am a twenty year old woman in the process of doing what I can to escape an abusive and, as a consequence of coming out recently, a horribly homophobic household.
My father has been a toxic, physically/emotionally abusive, and controlling individual for the majority of my life and this environment has just been so destructive to my mental health and outside relationships- in fact, I learned within the last year that I have developed ptsd and severe anxiety because of past trauma and supressed memories.
I also have a past of suicidal tendencies, eating disorders, and self harm because of this environment, and I am scared because as much effort I have put into healing, I feel these same urges resurfacing.
Things at home have just reached a climax and for my own sake, safety, and mental wellbeing, I have to get out as soon as possible. I cannot heal in the place that made me ill in the first place and I don't feel that I can make it here for another month because things have just gotten so remarkably hostile.
I just really need some help; I scraped together enough money to make a deposit on an apartment that I can't even live in until school starts in over a month, I've applied for a job as a graduate assistant that, again, doesn't start for another month, and I have no reliable transportation. If you could donate anything, a few dollars, for a few basic necessities to just keep me on my feet for the next month so I'm not unsafe and vulnerable and roaming the streets at night- enough to afford an Uber so I can travel to a women's abuse shelter several dozen miles away and stay there until school starts and I can live in my apartment, enough to afford bus fare to travel to a temporary job, to eat at least twice a day- I would appreciate it.
I'm not asking for a large sum of money, just enough to survive, because it's crucial that I leave.
Thanks so much for reading this. 🌟🌙