A word that almost everybody can relate to in some way or another.
Speaking for my own experience of anxiety I know it is a life consuming, hope suffocating, demon that latches on with the tightest grasp, feeding on your emotion, slowly draining every last bit of energy from your demoralised soul. And when it's feast is over it leaves an empty, fractured shell.
I beat anxiety.
I fought and I lost and I got so close just to end up further behind than I'd ever been, but I won in the end.
They put me on pills and they sent me here and referred me there but it was mind over matter.
Don't get me wrong, sometimes I felt that me and my mind didn't matter and that I would never, ever be free from this curse, but I made it.
Now I can proudly say that after 13 years of waging war against anxiety I am free from the hold it once had. The hold that held me hostage in my own fearful mind, restraining me from many experiences that I was too scared to reach for.
I spent a lot of time locked away in the comfort of my bedroom watching David Attenborough documentaries and various other programmes about the wonderful world we are so lucky to inhabit. Although my fascination with such wonders was passionate, I would never have ever dared to even consider visiting such places, until now.
Aged 22 I am now brave enough to lust after an adventure afar and having battled with the devil I feel that the only thing stopping me from doing this is the money.
This is where I look to anybody willing to donate small or generous contribution to my new dream that if I'm honest I'm still pinching myself for even being able to say is my dream!!
It is my ultimate ambition to travel to Australia and explore the Whitsunday Islands as well as the Rainforest, followed by New Zealand and Fiji.
I can't express how grateful I am for any help towards this! Considering once upon a time it was a HUGE , traumatic deal for me to get on a bus and go into my local city centre (with my beloved comfort bottle by my side of course) and now I am planning to venture 10,493 miles across the other side of the world! Just wow.
For anybody who suffers from Anxiety and would like some first hand advice or just a distraction I would absolutely be more than willing to help. Trust me I've been up at silly o'clock in the morning, not being able to call anyone and I found that typing out a message really helps. Just drop me an email, I would love to help or just be a reassuring friend.