Urgent Help, Funeral, Medical Costs

Urgent - please help? i truly need your kindness and help. i am begging of you.

i'm angie, i am disabled and have multiple complex physical and mental and emotional disabilities and illnesses., mainly wheelchair bound,, i suffer severe agony pain physically and mentally 24 / 7 . i am almost 50 years old att time of starting this fund raising

i need help urgently on more than one thing please [ am so sorry to have to even ask ] for :

Funeral costs / Medical costs / Private home bereavement therapy / Personal pain Medical and living aids / Specialist personal carer.

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my mum my main carer died, i have no family, friends i had deserted me. mum and i hhad no savings so im having to pay the funeral costs of my beloved mum,, sorry i find this very distressing to talk about.she was my carer, my mum my best friend, world,, my everything. im lost now and have no one to turn to, nothing,

i dont have a life, i just exist.

i need to finish paying this bill as im getting in deep debt which is making me even more severely depressed,

i already suffer daily and since a child from major depressive disorder, means i have bad panic attacks go in to crisis,suicidal thhoughts, self harm, severe anxiety and all else goes wiith mdd ,,many falls, other injuries and truamas made much worse in my late teens due to rape and violent attack and in my early 20's due to my now ex husband who abusedd annd hit me me and much more loss,police saved me aand,when he went to prison i was saved, to many truamas to list as well as many many other things, to many to list here,

i need at least £ 1160 , it would hopefully also allow me to have her name placed in remembrance book for two years at least

mum is, was special andd always will be, she adopted me, she saved my life many a time. now shes gone. i was taken away from my birth mother due to neglect and abuse. aand for own safetty

( picture aabove is my mum, who was my everyything. i lost both my beloved labrador, she was 12, then 2 weeks later my mum.)

below is of my beloved mum

she was in a induced coma and died from a lot of things including sepsis,,and ful organ failure and there was nothing else thhey could do. i was alone as nurses tried to contact friends to be with me as tthey allowed mme to stay at tthe hospital aand be with mum to in icu nearly all the time,, not one friendd wanted to know or be with me, icu nurses in tears for me as i was to. this is, llast picture i have. just before they had to turn life support off,,

sorry if upsetting i dont have many pictures and dont know wwhat else to do] and taken advice not to say to much by all that helped or should say kept asking me to set up a fund raising page.

Medical Cost

i really need a new 6 lead pad tens machine,, it helps so much , it cost a lot when first bought over 16 yyears ago,, it helped greatly with my spine and legs which are injured due to a bad accident which turned my life up side down . i am now al risk of losing mmy right leg due to vascular disease.

i need a flutter device, mine has broken and had been used for several years as needed for my severe asthma

(now bought a new flutter,,,thank you all so much)

last things i am praying for ,

please?

i'd like help to have much longer,, proper bereavement help, all i was given was 6, 1hourr home appointments which have not helped as just nnot long enough, the only way now is private counselling , i need longer and as dr said more time, support and in depth counselling, but i need this done at home,, which would cost money which i have not got

i am with out a specialist home carer, as i cant afford one and it has to be one that can help wiith all my illnesses, handi-caps etc, i'd love to be able to have a long break away from home, but need a carer with me. so again that is going to cost a lot of money and it has to be a specialist carer for my disabilities,,, i have many disabilities, illnesses,, ffar to many to list .

i honestly do need time away to help try to some how come to terms with loss of my mum and have not had any kind of break or holiday for years. most feel it would hhelp and needed . and they are right,, i truly need time away i know that now .

last break or holiday i had was as a young child of 6 yrs old in eastbourne (1 week) and cornwall ( 1 weekend) which i'll always remember, my mum and dad couldnt afford another one and they did not own a car, we only went away a couple of times when my nan was alive as she drove a car. .

my drs at hosppital and even charity's that helped get me do to this funding or crowd funding as some called it? they have told me i do not have to put every serious disease, disabilities, illnesses , traumas .i have got as they are so multiple complex and so many.

i want to thank turn2us for helping me word all this.

im so so sorry to ask all this of strangers, im so distressed,, in tears and very embarrassed to ask for money like this ,

i just seriously am so lost and dont know what else to do except this and be brave reach out and ask for help,, this is a major thing for someone like me.

please can you help? i know money is said not to buy happiness but ffor some one like me it would help in so many ways .

i thank you from bottom of my heart ,

all my love angie

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