An elderly woman’s fight to survive

At the age of 15 I lost my father to cancer upon his death me and my mother inherited his loans and spent every euro we had to pay the loans. I left school because of depression for losing my father, for not being able to pay his loans for not being able to function at school without eating. I'm not healthy either my white blood cell count is too high and growing which in the worst case can be leukemia but I'm too afraid to go back to the doctor to make sure. Since my white blood cell count started to rise I lost 33 kilos. My father died right in front of me of cancer little over 4 years ago and also sad and embarrassed of might not be able to pay for medication in case needed. But most importantly I don't want to die and leave my mother alone cause I'm the only thing she got. I created this account on behalf of my mother cause she is very severely underweight at 171cm only 40 kg due to extreme starvation and I fear for her life she had a minor heart attack before. She can't go to the doctor for the same reason I can't cause we just simply can't afford it. We live together with 10 cats and 2 dogs and it's a fight to survive each day. We would be forever grateful if someone could help us pay the remaining loan, and help us afford the doctors treatment, and most importantly help us so that we can buy food and survive until I get healthier cause despite being only 20 years old now I can't take care of my mom it takes a lot of effort to even stand up I feel weakness and I pass out on a weekly basis. I'm begging you be the one who saves our life.