In 2001 I lost my best friend and little sister Jolene to a horrible disease. Jolene was way too young to die, but this horrible disease took her away from her family and friends. She was only 39 years old when she passed. She left behind a husband and a daughter Lori. In 1993 I had just had surgery on my left hip. Jolene and Tom came to visit me at the hospital, something wasn't right but I didn't ask. Jolene stayed at her home until 1995 with a little girl and work, it was hard for her husband to take care of her. Mary Ann (Jolene mother) just retired from the bank. Jolene mom and dad decided that they could take her so they made their den into a hospital room. I was working at CRC at the time but was at home so I helped take care of her. There were nurses and nurses aid everybody loved Jolene. I learned a lot and knew I didn't want to be a nurse. In 2001 a lot of stuff was happening in February a good friend passed away, many other people that we knew had passed. Around September 5, 2001 I was over to my brothers Mark place. Nancy his wife was selling dogs so I picked up a doxie I named him Duke, than 911 happened. In October Jolene body showed signs of shutting down it finally shut down on October 15, 2001. This was the beginning of my journey of becoming the person I am now from hating God to Praising God. It has taken me a long time to get where I am now from gaining werght, drinking, trying to understand why I couldn't heal her, I have struggles with feeling like I didn't do enough, or I said something I shouldn't of. April 11, 2015 I went to a woman retreat we had a pastor from Assembly of God come and speak. Her message was about forgiveness I felt like I needed a altar call so I went up and asked forgiveness from Jolene for not doing the right things, or saying the right things. People came up and prayed for me. My friend had a word from God saying that I can't get over that I couldn't save her. It made a lot of sense so on my way home instead of mourning for her loss, because I can't bring her back. I am going to raise money to help the doctors find a cure for this horrible disease. I came home and shreded a poem that was not a good poem, took a picture down that was negative. I came up with a ideal of making pot tops holder and sell them on my need a prayer website. Than I was talking to my sister Barbara she stated her and Logan (her son) are going to do the ALS walk in Raleigh, NC 2016 in memory of Jolene who will have been passed on for 15 years. I have been trying to help people with prayer and inspirational verses or saying. I have grown in God's word for the past couple of years. I don't know why it took so long, God was waiting on me to get it straight. I have started eating more vegtables, drink more water, gave up Dr Pepper which I loved but knew it wasn't good for me. I had already lost 30 pounds in the past year but would gain it back lose it again. Today I feel I will lose the extra weight, and feel good. The horrible disease that took my beloved sister Jolene is Amyotrophic lateral Sclerosis ALS named after a famous baseball player call Lou Gehrig. When you donate $5 or more I will send you a Red Pot Top Lid Holder with a purple sash; Purple Pot Top Lid Holder with Red sash. Thank you for your support.