Suffering severe PTSD, anxiety, depression and unhealthy coping mechanisms such as addiction and self harm from recently recovered memories of being subjected to child kidnapping, sexual abuse, rape, and torture in a BSDM natured pornography ring when I was 4 & 5 years old. Horribly, when this happened I witnessed another girl get beaten to death. Im a 21 year old female desperate for treatment. Had to quit university and move back in with parents because of my mental health. Cannot get insurance and am picking into my education funds for money to live and get therapy.
Im trying to go to a residential treatment program at Homewood Health Center in Ontario where its specialized for PTSD or a inpatient facility in calgary, so i can stay near my parents for support.
I think everyday about the girl who I saw dead she has saved me so many times. So my promise to her is that Im going to be above those sick men and not let them depress and steal away my life like they did to her. I want to thrive for her sake because she would had wanted me to go on just as I wish she could have. Please help me get the help I need and keep the promise I so desperatly want to fufill. Anything donated is a step forward.