Acne OUT!

Please allow me a few minutes to read my story. I know there is not a place to ask this but i write this with crying in my eyes, but i think this is my last chance for a good life. I am 18 years old and i have acne problems :( I have a lot of scars buds...i cry everytime when i see my face behind mirror. I feel depressed because of my acne problem sometimes i am too depressed and i don't want to go in school or outside with my friends.All what i want to do is to go in hospital for acne problems where they can remove my all scars of buds with laser. I write here because i don't have moneys i just live with my grandparents and they didn't get enough retired payment. Sometimes when i go out i see kids who says "Mom what happend with this boy? Look his face" Girls ignore me because my acne problems when i speak with them via skype everything is perfect but when they see me....I forgot to say a lot of time i stay in mountain in tent...alone.. only that gives me enough relax.Everything what i want is just to go out without buds and scars and to meet new peoples for who will be pleasure to be with me.