Childhood Sexual Abuse Survivor

I have started this campaign page for myself in a attempt to alleviate the financial burden i am under, Often going without basic needs and just recently was evicted from a mobile home i was renting and having no place to stay. I am asking with the understanding that many individuals are in need just as i am and rely on the good hearted nature of many understanding the struggles of abuse and its effects, Asking for charity is not easy for many of us who may have reached this point due to many years of the mental wear and tear on our minds caused from abuse. Regardless of the constant struggle in my every day life i managed to navigate life this far, only at this point in my life have i reached out for help coming to terms with my mental anguish excepting its ok to ask for help. Its become a constant struggle from day to day facing obstacles i once believed i was overcoming and getting past, but now realize in actuality i have lived in denial for the most part and its ok to get help for the mental issues i face. I have reached this point in my life facing mental issues due to the mental, physical and sexual abuse at the hands of my father from a very young age to the age of 16. Im hoping to write about my experiances of sexual abuse one day as a process to heal and hopefully help others that relate with my story. As i stated i never properly addressed my issues and never spoke with a professional about them and i suffer often making it hard for me to be around people, I am a people person for the most part and encounter my issues from the panic i feel when l am overwhelmed with my enormous insecurities. I dealt with alot of insecurities growing up having to learn how to appear to be in control when actually i was always panicking inside dealing with one of the most dysfunctional home lives you could imagine. I have worked from the age of 13, till now in manufacturing and production unfortunately moving around alot due to issues with certain individuals, You know the one's who like to bully people. I have issues with facial ticks, tensing up and often make faces i dont know im making and It seems to get worse the more pressure im under and my nerves are out of wack, I have always done this and even tho i try my best i never seem to be able to stop even after a neck injury i received years ago at work. When i dont get my nerves worked up i dont do it all so much, I hope to find a solution one day by working for myself and keeping pressure of myself in high manufacturing production type jobs. I like to work flea markets and find stuff to fix up and sell eventually getting a truck or van and one day support myself doing something i also enjoy. Thank you for reading, Please go on further to read updates i have added here on gogetfunded and follow me on twitter. I have added posts about my home life growing up and updates to my current situation. My donation section starts at $5, But if you would like to you can donate just starting at $1 through this support campaign and follow this link.. https://assets.gogetfunding.com/hope-12/ via @GoGetFunding UPDATE: I have decided to use a image of me when i was a child to make shirts for donations. If i can raise enough money to buy the shirts i want to come up with a logo then print it on the shirts along with the image to raise awareness. Each shirt sold a portion of the proceeds i would like to use to help fellow sexual abuse survivors.