a physics student willing to get funded to complete her life journey

Actually, I don't know what does being financially stable is, I have been suffering most of the time, and I wouldn't say it is because of lack of money, but I am sure that if my financial situation was a bit better, everything would be different, I came from a middle class family where both my parents were working but due to the war, my father ended up jobless and my mother is paid less nowadays and she hardly can cover the basic needs of our family, I have decided after graduating from high school to leave my place for better education and I did and I have been based in turkey for more than 4 years, I have successfully passed all my classes at physics department with the highest GPA among my faculty and I tried to find a job during my study but I wasn't offered a work permit, however there are many employers that can accept students without permit to work and I have worked as a translator, assistant in a contract company, also as a typer in some company but when you have no permit, you will go through a lot of uncomfortable looks, touches, flirting and so on and one day the boss tried to harras me, that was when I decided to leave the job and focus on my study bit I can barely cover my basic needs, I have felt so in accepted by my classmates because I couldn't fit with them and couldn't hangout at the fancy bars, clubs and cafes, when I finally graduated with the highest GPA, I could feel that money isn't everything because I was over the moon and felt the warmth and mercy of the life but still it hurts me when I can't afford buying some accessories or hanging out with some friend, I am trying to find some job related to my department but there are many obstacles, such that many companies don't accept foreigners and they consider a bachelor in physics into enough to be employed in one of the fine institutions , I couldn't have a boyfriend during my 4 years nor a friend, sometimes I feel like I want to be accepted and loved, I want to cry between the arms of someone, go back to family, but the terrible financial situation I am living left me with no option but to write here, maybe someday this money and these donations will lead me to somewhere, sometimes I feel like how fair it is when I am dying to get some money into my pockets while I haven't given up till the moment and scored the best among my classmates meanwhile some people don't even think of how much does this cost or whatever, I wish I had money to live a better life, I feel so broken lonely, useless, helpless, left alone, contactless, socially isolated, emotionally deprived,mentally ill, I am so shy to share these things with any one, I have thought of visiting some psychologist but I couldn't afford it, my family doesn't know anything about my situation because I know how bad they are living. I am left speechless, I can't understand how fair it is, I wish many things but I wish I can end all of this,

I am not sure if this helpless campaign can reach anyone but in case of, you can donate or to be more sure you can contact me directly at my student email

, I havent shared too much about me because I feel so shy to ask people for help and I don't want my family to know how bad is my life while they can't really help

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