A story from heart, realy help needed…

Hello,

I never thought it could be so hard to write such a letter. I don’t have words on how to put it correctly, so I’ll write as is.

Let’s start with the fact that I don’t want to get money in vain, it’s unacceptable to me because I tended to help others. I have hope and a great desire for everyone who helped me get my finances back through paypal right after I get on my feet.

I have been working independently since 2009, I am a blacksmith. I have a wife, two children and their pet hamster:)

Working for many years in my work with metal, seeing that people in need of essential services, I just didn’t take the money or made it very cheaply. Apparently, that's why I have financial problems now, because I didn't act like a real entrepreneur. But that’s fine, I think it’s humanity, and it should be, I’ll survive, I don’t regret helping others. With the workers, too, I hired those who needed financial help, paid more than they earned, and never punished for mistakes or damaged work materials, instead of punishing, I continued to train the craft. I don’t know, I’m maybe stupid, but I like to see happy people.

The problems started three years ago. When installing the gate, I accidentally turned on the remote control from the automated gate in my pocket and the gate injured my hand. It seems like a small problem, but how deliberately I had customers who, even on the day of the hand operation, realized that I would be late with the ordered products and demanded the return of the deposits, even though the work was halfway through. To whom I could, I returned to those who did not have enough funds, they went to the courts. Eventually, a large debt accumulated after the courts. To date, it is about € 21,500, but the problem is not that. I tried as much as I could to pay debts back. Contributed by both family and familiar and very economical lifestyle. As an example, now my family of 4 people live in a 1-room apartment, I, a wife, a 7-year-old daughter and a 4-year-old son. Not as easy as reading the text may seem, but possible. But even that’s not why I’m writing here, life’s hardships are a good way to get stronger and be stronger than before. I was already used to working with an injured hand, all that was left was that debt.
Now that that "second" wave of Covid has started, the number of orders has been reduced to a minimum, I haven't had a single order in the last 3 months, I don't know why, but my health has deteriorated a lot, I did tests, tests say I didn't get Covid, but it is hard to walk, heart problems started, no more strength ... maybe the tests are wrong, maybe something else struck my health. I can no longer feed the family. Every day i feel very bad. I can’t get a health check because I can’t have health insurance because of my existing debt.
I’m not asking to cover my debt, don’t pay attention to the numbers you saw in the text, I just wanted to convey a life story to better understand each other.
My debts remain my debts, I will pay them according to my possibilities, I will also repay You when I can, if I can. Just help me survive the current period, help me get funds to research my health and recover so that I can continue to live, enjoy my family and get a chance to help others through this website. At the moment, I have 30 euros left in my wallet for tomorrow’s food and then everything ... but before I wrote this letter, I read other people’s stories ... there are worse than those who live for me. I have life-threatening problems, but I don’t feel good addressing you. I feel naked after telling everything, I have nowhere to turn, Here is the last stop.

Just in case you think I am worth living and helping others in the future, help me today. Thanks to everyone, even the smallest penny will help us.