A refreshing new start gap year

Hello

Im Hessa im 20 years old South African. My dream was to study abroad when finishing hughschool after i found out my parents couldn't pay for my tuition as they were unemployed. I never gave up the dream of studying i enrolled myself to online university degree while working part time jobs to fund my online education. Last year i got married to what i imagined the greatest thing that has ever happened to me. To my unfortunate i had the most horrible marriage experience filled with abuse. It was disturbing to me and affected my faith badly as i had just accepted Islam. It has been the worse months of my life trying to heal from that broken innocence. Through strength i ealier this year was fascinated to join the au pair programme and start afresh doing something positive. Unfortunately i couldn't afford the programne fee and other costs involved after matching with a family and seeing the best possible bright future ahead. I hope to have enough money to enrol through a university and further my studies with my passion of teaching or if not then start afresh by enrolling on a programme for the good and peaceful contribution to the world.