After many decades I found the courage to report sexual abuse as a child. One of my abusers following questioning admitted to his actions. I should be relieved but my nerves are in tatters. I try really hard to put those events and their impact behind me. I'm working less at the moment as a result but really need a break. I'm sorry that sounds indulgent. It's not meant to. I just need to rest in a peaceful setting. With time and right environment I'm sure I will start to turn that corner.
The problem with abuse is that we hear so much about it we become desensitized but trust me survivors never forget. It impacts on them daily. I really don't want to ask but finances are so tight I am unable to fund this myself hence my request.
I'm rubbish at asking so if all of this sounds dumb I really am sorry but just thought it was worth a try.