A little goes along way

Hello! My name is Renesha and I'd like to thank you for taking the time to check out this post.

I guess the best place to start is by telling a little about my situation. Although it is hard for me, I never ask for help... with anything:p

The story:

I was a full-time student up until a few months ago. However, I decided it would be in my best interest to take a semester off in-order to work. I did so to be able to start paying off my loans for school. I figured this would make most sense so that once I am finished with school, I wont have as much to pay back and I'd be able to get on my feet a lot sooner. So, I got certified as a PCA/caregiver and landed a job at an assisted living home. However, I only work so many hours and I am required per my job description to be on call. Therefore, I can't even get a second job unless I find a new job and quit my current one. So it's proving difficult to pay off both my loans and live day to day. Sometimes I find myself going days without even eating cause I simply can not afford it sometimes or I'm just too stressed to even consider it. This last month things have gone from getting through to pushing my limits. My cousin, who was ill his whole life and someone I helped care for, finally found peace. He passed away, putting more of a strain on the household funds as a trip was needed to be made and funeral costs were needed to be met. I had to sell my only means of transportation in-order to get through this alone and still be able to get back to my main reasoning for taking time off my studies. Then, the light at the end of my tunnel became more apparent. But of course there is a downside to every up. I found better jobs and schooling out east, but moving is something I can't fully afford on my own. Not right now. But, on the same note, I can't really afford to take another semester off school either. Which lead me here, asking for help from the kindness of strangers.

What I intend to do, my plan:

I'm not asking for help on moving, if that's something I need to do, I need to do it in my time and when it fits. It would be the best for my situation but in the same sense I can wait a bit longer. However, I am asking for help to get by. Maybe even to buy a cheap little point A to point B car. Also, making a decent payment back on my loans will allow me some freedom to get the little things I need at home ranging from food to paying bills. I hate to even ask, it makes me feel like somewhere I've gone extremely wrong while doing everything in my power to do extremely right. But right now I need help and I've tried everything before this. Even to sell everything I own except my bed. I want nothing more than to finish my schooling and give back to the country that has provided me with so much. I want to continue passing on my positive, kind, and loving attitude to those who would otherwise not experience that. No matter how hard it is to come home sometimes, I never let the people I care for know or see that I'm in a rut, therefore creating a sense of happiness in them. This means everything to me right now, the smile on their face. In finishing my education I will be able to work with more people on a higher and more personal level, making someone else's life better. I am currently going to school to become an RN and I am also looking into CNA courses to increase my pay while getting through school as well as to further my education from a PCA, one step closer to my goal. 

What I would like to raise some money for:

The most important thing to me right now is getting by. 

Bills and food are something we all have to pay for, I never realized how hard these things could be to pay for until now. Going without is something I've been willing to do, but I am starting to get weak and it's affecting my ability to preform my job top notch. 

Paying back more to my school loans SO!! I can FINALLY get back to my education. 

Maybe a car? Thankfully I can walk to work for now, it's only about a mile and a half away. 

Any help would be amazing and a true help to someone just simply trying. I've tried everything I can to not have to ask for help. I have no family members who are able to help me out right now, as we just buried someone so everyone is a little tight ended right now. I'll never be able to thank those who do help out. Never. I will forever be grateful to the strangers who took it upon themselves to help someone they don't even know who is in need. All I can say is, you should know that you will be the reason I am a little less scared to come home and a little closer to becoming the person I feel as though I was intended to become. 

Thank you, from the bottom of my heart for even reading this. You kindness is what keep us all as one. :)

May you be blessed in all you do, and enjoy everything you are and everything you can.