A Laptop to chase a dream

I used to live on streets and move from place to place to survive for i don't have a family to rely on. I only have one vice and it's computer game addiction but it's also what educates me. Then i met friends and institutions that gave me opportunity to dream, learn multimedia and graphic design. I thought things will go smoothly from there but aside from many other factors, in this generation, as the population grows bigger so is the competition getting insanely hard especially for those who are not a degree holder like me, going back to school is not the best option for me now. Opportunities are limited unless you play aggressively to the point of destroying one's hope to be able to at least take a single step forward, everything is a struggle. From one failure to another, i have no one to rely on since i was young so i have to start from scratch in every failure yet fate seems to be picking on me. So here i am, asking for help to raise money for a durable laptop that can handle video editing and 3D modeling / animation that will serve as my ladder to success, so that even if the corporate world rejects me, with a laptop is like having my own office will be a huge step. Im eyeing on this Alienware 17 R4 which have a price tag of at least $1,300.00. https://www.notebookcheck.net/Alienware-17-R4-7820... It's the best model that offer what i need, quality and capacity. But if you happen to have a mid range laptop that you want to donate instead, this fund raising will no longer be needed then. Please help me.