A Friend In Need Is A Friend Indeed

My Name is Kevin Joiner I'm 31 years old and have had a few tragic situations put in front of me creating lots of difficulty to get ahead in life. It started with my body getting really sick when I was 13 I was diagnosed with Crohn's disease and that was very tuff news to take on considering I was an avid athlete and hockey was a big part of my life as well as snowboarding and I had to stop both all of a sudden due to my health condition which any body whom knows myself knows I was ver competitive and to stop something and or quit was not who I was this was quite devastating my doctor said if I get hit in the stomach area that it could end up being fatal so that was the end of sports for me as a young man right at this time my parents who had been loving caring and 100 % supportive were dealing with some tragic problems of there own and that led to them separating after 30 years of marriage this was really hard for me to accept considering I loved the both of them and I going through puberty and dealing with my own shit took this very hard being a sensitive person and I developed some resentments towards my mother and father not knowing how to deal with this stuff being so young I chose to be friends with some people that I thought were my friends but really were using me for my kindness and whatever else they could get from me these people were very bad influences on me and I began to get suicidal and depressed feeling hopeless despair and alone I this world and I became trapped in this love hate relationship with something that wanted to destroy me and my soul stealing from me cheating lying every bad thing you could imagine this was what went on in this toxic relationship that began right around d the death of my grandmother this being the first death I ever dealt with and the fact she passed on my birthday was to much to handle si my situation got worse I tried to get away from this relationship many times throughout my life yet the more I desired to be without the harder this relationship got digging its claws into my life and controlling what and where I go so I moved from the Comox valley to Alberta to start a new life 6 months after being there I came back for Christmas and was in a debilitating car accident on the Inland highway on Vancouver island lost control due to another carr hitting me my Ford explorer rolled 11 times at 110k my head was injured bad leaving me with no recalection of what happened or who i was or where i was going severe brain damage was done and i nearly died really set me back in life i couldn't do much of anything for myself to due with responsibilities and the overwhelming fear of life was setting in I lost the abilitie to make decisions and was like a lost cause without any support or direction to go in now I lost my identity and became a different person my peers tell me that I use to be a certain way and I dont remember that person sadly I am different now and another incedence happened last year in the late spring.It was a nice warm spring evening and I had just finished working for the day and when I arrived home I started to cook dinner and that was the last thing I remember then I was in the hospital and they told me that I had a grandmal Seizure and I was in a very disturbing state for almost 2 hours there was 3 police officers 6 paramedics my girlfriend and my mother and father were at the scene and I was clenched onto the flore in a rigmortis state and I was not in my body my mom and girlfriend said the look on my face was extremely scary I wasn't in my body anymore I was dead .by a miracle the paramedics got me to breathe and become conscious again and I woke up in the hospital in coma not knowing who I was where I was who my family is or anything comatose there is a pocket of Fluid on your brain and ever since the incident happened I have memory problems and am not the same person as I was before the seizure my life has changed drastically I was an avid athlete my whole life I played hockey for 16 years baseball and lived snowboarding mtbiking and being outdoors and being busy working but my life has changed due to the fact that I'm permanently disabled now and unemployed and struggling to get by my bank account is almost always at $0 when my money comes in for my unfortunate disability I'm left with 117$ to buy food etc. After I pay my rent and hydro it's very tiring and depressing for me and I would be so grateful of any contributions made towards helping my unfortunate situation out thank you so much for taking the time to read my story and God bless Kevin