a fathers right to be with his sons

Hi Everyone, Thank you for taking the time to read my story.It has been a hard three years not being able to be with my children. I have two boys that are now 5 and 10 years old. I adopted my oldest son when he was a one and a half years old. I was married to their mom for a few years, as we grew apart, I figured it was time to leave, so I did the right thing and told her she could have everything. All I asked for was equal time with my children.Three weeks later I got my first protection order served and she kidnapped both boys for a total of 33 days. I have never been arrested and have no criminal history. The same system a few years earlier that let me adopt her child after only knowing him a short time As time passed I have received calls threatening to be killed by her “boyfriend”. In the same house where my children were living. My visitation schedule went from 50/50 to only every other weekend from Friday at 2:30 p.m. until Sunday at 6:30 p.m.I have lost most of my possessions, my house, a truck, but the only thing that matters is the TIME I have lost and am losing everyday with my boys! I am posting here today asking for help.I have gone through three lawyers, two guardian ad litems (one that was picking up empty beer bottles when I showed up at her office for a interview) and over $20,000. Sadly enough, to say proving the truth is not good enough.Since our custody schedule has changed the boys have had broken bones, lots of bruises, and also admitted in the hospital for 3 days due to Mom not following doctors dietary orders. They both show severe signs of separation anxiety from their Dad. She is taking time away from the things that they value and love such as their grandparents, beloved dog and their two bearded dragons. She has made many false accusations culminating in protective orders with no substantiated claims. Took the children for another 15 days. I have all the proof on paper and it’s all in black and white but the lawyers need money. When I drop the children off on Sunday evenings to go back to their Moms, she is not even the one there to pick them up, they do not want to get out of the truck and they sometimes cry saying “two weeks is just too long” and “it’s just not fair”. My little guy has told me several times that he asked to call me outside of their allotted time but their mother sarcastically asks him “What? Do you want to live there all the time”. Making him feel sad and guilty to want to talk to me.I have tried many ways to make this work, but she wants me out of the children’s lives. I have done many weeks of co-parenting counseling, even though she stopped going. I have done a high- conflict co -parenting class during which she lied her whole way through.Right now she has it setup through the court system that the ONLY contact we have with each other is email regarding children’s medication/medical info. She is supposed to talk to me about things in the children’s lives but she has final say in the decisions made.I also had to take a psychiatric evaluation with parenting components in order to try and change the visitation schedule with the children. I am not a doctor by any means but I am very certain that she is emotionally abusing these children and it is definitely not healthy for anyone. I am NOT trying to take them away from their mother. I just want what is good for the boys. What they have been through and what they are going through on a daily basis hearing adult conversations and badmouthing of their father is definitely NOT in their best interest.There is so much more that I can share in detail and prove. If anybody is willing to see or listen I would gladly share in a private email or in person. I am asking everybody out there who may read this or may know somebody that can help, every cent will count and I can assure you I do not need money for material things nor do I care for material things. A family lawyer with experience in cases likes this who would be willing to take on a pro-bono case would be incredibly appreciated.ANY money donated will be deposited in an account that will be designated to pay lawyers or any legal fees. I will post copies of all money paid out. If I am lucky enough to have funds left over, no matter how much or how little, it will be donated to another father in need that has is going through the same thing.At the end of the day the only ones that really suffer is our children and no matter what type of person you are, no one wants to know that children suffer in any way shape or form. Thank you again for taking the time to read this. God bless“I cannot think of any need in childhood as strong as the need for a father’s protection. -Sigmund Freud