A Christmas Dream

my name is leanne i have 3 children they are 17 10 and 5. i have been out of work now a little over a year. i have been putting in applications everywhere i have gotten a couple calls but nothing yet.my unemployment recently ended so the only income i get is in child support (which my ex isnt paying). its been a struggle these last couple of months. im trying so hard to get things bk on track but its hard.                                                                                                                                                   i have always given my kids a good xmas over the years but when i seperated from my childrens father its been harder n harder. for 16 years i was mentally physically and emotionally abused by a man that said he loved me. i got a restraining order july 2010 and began my journey of being a single mom with 4 kids. i got myself a job working in a nursing home in march 2011 i was there a little over a year things were deffinetly looking up.                                                                                    until my life was about to change forever on august 1st 2011 i got a phone call that my 2year old son joshua was missing. i rushed home where he was under the care of a family member. i got home and searched all over for my babyboy. family freinds and neighbors were searching i then heard a loud scream of a friend and i knew they found him. it was just to late. he had drowned in the lake close to my house. the medical team tried to revive him but couldnt. rip my baby...                                  now i have my 3 others that i love with every breathe i take. life has hit me pretty hard. i have an in home counsler that comes out once a week and helps me threw alot but financially she cant. this time of the year is the hardest.                                                                                                      about a week ago my children wrote their christmas lists when i read them it brought tears to my eyes. my 17 year old christmas wish is to see his mother happy and wake up xmas morning with a smile. (i can make that happen) with the help of others. my 2 younger children asked for toys and ipads and just one thing that caught my eye they asked for a home with warm heat and electric. i cried i dont know how they know mommy is having a hard time but they do.                                     i am asking for help to try to make some of their dreams come true. if u can help out in any way i would be eternally grateful. living with no income at all is one of the hardest struggles of being a parent. i dont have much to offer in return but pictures of my children xmas morning. i will forever be grateful to all who help out and maybe one day when i get on my feet i can help out someone else in need. thank u all god bless u and have a merry christmas......