I have always been a strong and independent woman. Divorced my abusive husband, moved to a town where I knew no one, and set out to raise my 3 children in a happy and healthy home. I did this with no help (no child support or social services) My children are grown and I was looking forward to playing with my grandchildren and creating fun and memorable adventures with them. I was 49, energetic, adventurous, in good health, no aches or pains and still enjoyed life with a child like imagination In Feb. of 2010, my healthcare company offered 75.00 in gift cards to Walmart if I had a annual check up and routine mammogram. That's when everything changed.
I was diagnosed with stage 3b HERR2 positive breast cancer that had spread to my lymph nodes. I started a very aggressive chemo treatment on April 25th and spent my 50th birthday losing large clumps of my long red hair. I started 10 weeks of radiation a year later and being fair skinned, I burned and blistered leaving scars. I just kept telling myself that all the sickness, the pain, the feeling of shame and being less than, would soon be over and I could be me again. That didn't happen.
In September 2014, I started have alot of pain in my lower back and thinking that there was a chance that my cancer had now spread to my bones, they did a scan and good news it was not in my bones, BUT they found a large mass cancerous on my left kidney and it was removed along with several other lymph nodes. The aggressive chemo, the continuing drug therapy and the heavy radiation did alot of damage and my teeth started to break off at the gum line leaving only the roots. (I never even had a cavity) My vit. D levels went to less then zero and I was not absorbing the calicum suppliment they were giving me. My blood pressure was out of control (112/190) and my bone density went down to -3.82 and my spine was degenerating and curving at 18% to the left. I have a back brace and knee brace that I wear all the time, I had to have both upper and lower dentures, I am on meds for the blood pressure and any type of physical activity puts me down for days.
Through all this, I still tried to live a "normal" life. I continued to make poppies for the vets home. Drove neighbors to the local food shelve and grocery store. Checked on the few that were confined to their beds and brought fresh veggies from my garden to the assisted living bldg here in Cannon Falls.
Now that ability is gone also! On Feburary 7th 2017 while I was stopped waiting for a car to make a left turn, I was rear ended by an SUV and a distracted driver going 55mph in a 30 mph zone. My trunk was in my back seat and all 4 doors to my dodge neon would not open. I was slammed so violently against the back rest that it broke and I had to have help climbing out the window. My car was totaled and she had no insurance, I had only liability, after all my car was 17 years old and I had it since it was new in 2000. I am so depressed and feeling trapped and lonely since my car gave me the ability to visit and socialize. It is a serious blow to my sense of independence to have to ask friends for rides to get groceries and run errands, that I don't even call them any more. They call me when they have time and my days are spent watching t.v. and sleeping. I am on disability and have a very limited income, with living expenses and medical bills, there is nothing left to replace my car. I live in a small town with no public transportation, so here I sit. It hurts me that I can't spend time with my grandchildren like I want, because of lack of transportation.
I am asking for your help in replacing my car. Im not asking for a new car. Just help getting one that runs decent and can get me to and from doctors and errands. I don't want to sit home watching t.v. waiting for the next cancer strike.....I still have too much living to do, when is enough enough????
Thank You for considering my request
Toni M Carlson