This will be my first book. As you can see from the title, this is 10 years worth of work; 10 years of searching, documenting, feeling & exposing my true self. With your help this book of almost 100 self-portraits could become a reality.
My work & practice
My journey is of a personal nature, my work explores themes of loneliness, nostalgia, anxiety & light.
My main photographic focus is self-portraiture, starting out simply through curiosity. Capturing self-portraits has become a major part of my life & work, it has enabled me to overcome anxiety and fears over life & mortality. Using the photographic practice as a calming mechanism, and a form of escapism.
I work predominantly with analog and instant cameras. The process involves me in every stage of development making the work deeply personal. The aesthetic of shooting film plays a major part within my work, exploiting the use of soft focus, colour casts, as well as the apparent dust and scratches that appear on the negatives. These are all a part of the process and a part of the documentation of my identity, and my surroundings.
Anxiety & I
When I was fifteen I was diagnosed with Cystic Fibrosis, a heavy thing to deal with at an already weird and wonderful age. Growing up from here and into my mid twenties I developed quite an intense anxiety over my health and began thinking about death daily and diagnosing myself with everything at the sight of any pain or weird feeling in my body. I took my time but eventually realised I had to deal with this very real fact and that it actually wasn't as bad as my mind had me believe to begin with.
The only thing that really helped me deal with all of this was photography and turning the camera on to myself. I felt better for documenting my existence, even if it was the most mundane things and I had nothing to say, I was there, I am here and I have evidence. The thought that these images and negatives will survive and exist (hopefully) after I'm gone gives me a slight sense of relief & a feeling that I can live on through this medium.